Time for a little Grace

Posted by Anita Bondi on February 16, 2010 under Anita Bondi | Be the First to Comment

In the InterPlay Inspiration Deck, Grace says that she wants to be found.  Today is a day that I need Grace.  She wears red so that she is easier to see in the crowd.  This morning the crowd is inside of my head.  There seems to be a cacophony of voices a bit too loud to really hear what any one of them is actually saying.  This is making my chest feel a bit tight and I notice that my breathing is also somewhat labored.  Why?  Hard to say.  I am doing Debbie Ford’s , 21 day Consciousness Cleanse, and today is about giving up the old agreements that are keeping us stuck.  That could be it?

Then there is the fact that it is approaching the end of February and the next phase of “the card deck project” is not really underway.  Sure I have done a few things, but not enough to get something going in the wholesale market.  That could be it?

There is also the way that an artist has to be self-motivated and find some structure in her days.  When to eat, exercise, write, research the next step, make stuff, and most importantly, make space for the inspiration.  This could be it?

A female cardinal has just landed at the bird feeder right outside the window where I am sitting and writing.  She is a beautiful red-orange with a brilliant yellow-red beak.  Her head feathers are bouncing up and down and she bobs for her breakfast.  She is in one sense calm and in another on edge, ready to fly at any moment. I wonder if she has come to find me? If she is my Grace?  I do not hear the other voices in my head right now and I notice that I have finally exhaled.  This is it.