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Posted by Anita Bondi on March 3, 2010 under Anita Bondi | Read the First Comment

There is no title to this entry because I spent 3 whole minutes trying to come up with a catchy title and could not. What is there to say when one gets up at 6am and then, contemplates going back to bed at 8am? My dog has to go out, my bed has to get made, my clients will start arriving at 10am, my list of “to do’s” is a mile long, and all I can think about is lying around watching the rain dripping past the window.

On some level I know there is nothing wrong with that.

I have work to do though! Things to create! Things that have been created that need to get out into the world! Where is my focus? My drive? My motivation?

I used to do all of this stuff with the grace of an Olympic athlete, easily maneuvering the terrain, in excellent condition to push for hours on end. And, most importantly, I had the focus, the drive, the motivation that I am now in search of as I lay on my chaise lounge computer in my lap!

If I am complete in this very moment, why do anything? If i am loved just because I am, why bother getting up at all today? There has to be a reason to move forward.

I am waiting for a reason.

Five minutes and nothing has arrived. I guess the dog needing to go out will have to be good enough.